Grab Bag vol. 14
Things I found interesting lately, what I’ve been up to, and whatever else comes to mind.
This was supposed to be achievable. Once a month, maybe even every other month, just five things that popped into my head. It didn’t have to be perfect or polished. It didn’t even have to be five things! Who makes the rules?! I make the rules! It was supposed to replace posting on instagram (which I also haven’t done). The problem is that I decided that there was absolutely no point to any of it, at all, whatsoever, and yeah, at that point, even five or two simple things become insurmountable.
So, point 1 and relevant: this year, I was bested by anxiety and depression - especially in running but in other ways too. If it were a physical ailment, like a stress fracture or something, I would have felt like it was against my control, but this feels like something I should have been able to overcome. Which is silly. Sometimes the chemicals don’t work right. That’s enough on that right now - but here is my favorite blog about depression.
At some point, if I can edit it to be less overwrought, I’ll share a longer post about running from the last year. But I just raced a 5K! And trained hard and PR’d. People laughed when I told them what race I was working towards (“Isn’t that just a warm up for you?!”) But I did it! And it was hard! I had to do fast workouts and it was actually a lot of fun.
In the uncertain and scary world right now, here is some relatable online content.
This week I was running with a friend and she said, “My job is not my identity. The things that make me good at my job are.” And damn. Isn’t that a good way of looking at it? Just like running. Running isn’t my identity, but the person it has made me and the things that come from pursuing it…those are. They can come in many forms and in different ways. Running is just a vessel for it.
I did it! 5 things!
More soon…